Wednesday, September 28, 2005

BUMMED OUT

Maybe it's taperitis... or early-arriving post-race letdown... but I feel blue and bummed and unmotivated. Quite a contrast to the bouncing-around-the-RV excitement I felt earlier in the week.

I've packed all my transition and special-needs bags, and one for the swim start and one for the finish line. They will give us "official" bags but all my stuff is ready, sorted, and ready to go into the "real" bags. That was fun but took about 15 minutes.

I don't feel well. I've had symptoms for a couple days. A headache, scratchy throat, off and on; icky stomach off and on; feeling tired and cold off and on. Probably my imagination. Nerves (although I do not feel nervous about the race.) But I feel dejected. Like, it doesn't matter, I didn't really want to do it anyway. Why am I feeling like this???

I just want to go to bed... guess I will.

Son Jon called this morning to report he has pneumonia. I had talked w/ my mom on Monday about a fiddle contest in which both she and Jon had played Sunday. She reported that both were off their game and neither won anything. She said Jon was coughing and not feeling well, and while waiting for his turn to play he went to a drugstore and got some cold medicine. Today he told me that by evening that day he had a fever and really bad cough, and went to the dr. on Monday, getting the diagnosis of right-lower-lobe pneumonia. He didn't even have a cold to start it off, just got pneumonia out of a clear blue sky, husky healthy young guy who's never sick.

4 comments:

Mica said...

Don't worry, your mood will swing back up. It's all part of the mental game. I would suggest a large amount of chocolate, but perhaps thats not wise with a race right around the corner....

Wrayjean said...

Ellie....I think what your going through is all normal at this stage in the game. Your there girl, trust your training....rest up, stay away from sick people and get your head focused on the up and coming task.....

Wrayjean

TriFeist said...

Hang in there Ellie. Don't let the taper bug bite you. You can do this!!!!

Downhillnut said...

Remember all those other things you like to do when you're not training? Now's when you can do them. Learn a new song on the keyboard. Take some pictures. Try a new recipe. Teach Journey some new tricks.

Before you know it you'll be plunging into the water with everyone else and marvelling at how far you've come.