I could start all over.
In a way.
I would like to be as I am now. With the experience, wisdom (such as it is), composure (such as it is) of a 50+ year-old woman, but putting that back there when I was 20- or 30-something, and raising my children.
I don't want to be 20- or 30-something again.
I just want my children to be where they were when I was there. And raise my children all over again, with the place-in-life where I am now.
I am so good with my grandchildren.
Why couldn't I have been that good with my children?
All I can pass on is the legacy of desire to do the best a person can....