I could start all over.
In a way.
I would like to be as I am now. With the experience, wisdom (such as it is), composure (such as it is) of a 50+ year-old woman, but putting that back there when I was 20- or 30-something, and raising my children.
I don't want to be 20- or 30-something again.
I just want my children to be where they were when I was there. And raise my children all over again, with the place-in-life where I am now.
I am so good with my grandchildren.
Why couldn't I have been that good with my children?
All I can pass on is the legacy of desire to do the best a person can....
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Crap. A heartfelt post like that and my first response is spam.
~Sigh~
Just think - you are that person now - and some people never get there - never look for ways to improve - body, mind, spirit. Your children and grandchildren are very fortunate to have such a caring and inspirational person in their lives!
Just look at it as a second chance--with your grandchildren. Remember, they need you too, more than you or they probably realize right now. When I look back on all that I learned in life, so much came from my grandparents' influence. Kids don't always have that these days, so being a grandparent is still very important. You are where you are in life for that reason.
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