How did I get into this?
I seem to be the pianist for a wedding. It's happening tomorrow (yes, a Tuesday.) When I agreed to this a month ago, I hadn't played the piano since my mother and I made that tape of cello/piano music almost 2 years ago. But here it is. In front of a whole lot of people.
I have stage fright. Performance anxiety. I looked for tips on the Internet.
The best one is: "Offer yourself as the medium through which the composer's spirit and intention will flow."
In other words... forget about myself. It's not about me. It's about this beautiful young couple and God's grace flowing through and around them as their beautiful celebration unfolds.
I'm praying. I'm practicing. I'm visualizing. But I'm still going to take some Xanax before I go.